As humans we seem to know our rights! The world teaches us that we need to be heard, to be treated in a certain way, that we are entitled to certain things. When someone hurts us, we need an apology; we need the person to know that they have hurt us; we even in some cases want compensation. The reality is though, we are not always going to get an apology; often people don’t even know that they have hurt us in the first place.

Morning comes. I breathe in. I breathe out. I walk to the bathroom and realise that I am still finding it hard to breathe. At this point, I have two choices; I can either sigh and struggle on with my day or I can have an attitude of gratitude. My natural instinct is to focus on what God has not done, rather than what he has but I need to remember that I have so much to be thankful for…

Who am I? A question that we all ask at some point or another. I sometimes hear of people going off to ‘find themselves’, often when something comes to an end or life takes an unexpected turn. For me, if you had asked me that question in the last five years, I would definitely have talked about teaching.

It's not until you reach the other side of the storm and look back that you begin to see the bigger picture. A few years ago, I had a vision for someone of a man inside a little boat being tossed around on the waves. As the picture zoomed out, I saw an old man sat on a bench. He was operating a little toy boat that was gently bobbing up and down on a small lake. I felt God say that you can feel like you are in the middle of the worst storm but He is above all of that. He can see the bigger picture; He is always in control.

I've found that on my journey of healing, I need to be so careful who and what I listen to and what I let come out of my mouth as a result. At the end of my bed, there is a ‘lovely’ file with all sorts of depressing information about the disease. The doctors are always very blunt and honest about the future. Listening to it all can make me quite upset and can start me off on quite a negative thought pattern. Eventually, I find myself talking in a similar way.